First day of the end of my life

Today is the first day of the end of my life. I wasn't made to be happy, nor my heart can desire to shine, therefore the darkness is his world, and the darkness his house. Today I deposit my heart in the hole of my life. Today I declare to be the funeral of who sits down without feeling. Lives without living. Today I declare that in this papyrus put my signature. Alexander, name of who dreamed more than owed and today stops dreaming what owed. The world today should be happy. I stop existing as somebody that desires... And step to live as somebody that waits. The end.